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Continuing On

A girl at work...very young...was talking the other day about writing a memoir.  She's been driving me crazy for a good while.  She has potential, but she'd rather complain and sort of slide by.  It drives me right up the wall.  And now she's talking about writing a memoir.  Which she could do, because she tells lies like she breathes...a memoir would be easy to write for her.

I recall when Elizabeth Wurtzel wrote the Prozac Diaries...she got all this flack and people accused her of lying.

I felt so jealous of her.  For being young, having potential and being thin.

I am at 26 pounds down.  It's difficult and I am grumpy.  I'm also grumpy for not doing a load of things...like writing.  If I had written regularly from my twenties on and after I got out of grad school I might have published by now.  Fear of rejection does a lot to a person...it stops you from jumping out of airplanes.  But the truth is...that being rejected helps you grow and learn.  Every successful person says so in their memoirs.

Maybe the annoying girl in my office will write a memoir or have a blog and being known far and wide.  I'm not sure it would make her happy.

A night in the grocery store

Since I've been dieting I seem to spend more time in the grocery store than usual...and since my diets are restricted I notice what people are buying.  Tonight what really stood out for me was the absolute junk that people buy their kids.  Sugary drinks and processed stuff...and no parent said no to any of them.  Whatever they wanted...the parents bought them...even when the kids were bouncing off the walls already.

When I am finally able to eat bread and whatnot...I am going to make every effort to not let myself fall into the habit of eating crap.

When I was a kid..my mom had no issues telling me no to buying something at the grocery store.  It's rare I hear a parent tell a kid...no...you don't need that when they are in a store shopping.  I'm not a parent...but I think sometimes the word no is a good thing.

Week 10

I hit my 20 lbs lost mark last week.  This week I didn't lose any weight but since I didn't gain I consider that a victory.

I have been having dreams about carbs however.  One night I dreamt my mom was making biscuits and a cake and I was laying out all the ingredients.  The next night...I had a dream about going to a custom cheesecake shop in a mall.  So this week I made pancakes - I used a packet from the program and then today I took the cripsey cereal packet and made it into batter. 

The pancakes I made today really filled me up.  And it's so nice to have a carb like substance!

I've also made plans to go away for Labor Day so I can relax.  I'm going to drive to KY to see friends, so it'll be my first long trip in the new car.  Well, I did drive to SC, but this will be my first trip over the big mountain.  I expect to enjoy it a lot more than my last trip to KY in the Escort...which I thought was going to give out for a bit.

Week 8

Well, last week I did very well, I lost 3.5 lbs.  So when I lose 16 pounds, I will weigh what I did in Brooklyn when I was doing Weight Watchers.  The WW and walking  did pretty well for me, but living in Brooklyn/NYC walking was so easy to do.  I would take long walks around Manhattan on weekends and do yoga at OM.  I really miss that about living in the suburbs.  

Sure there are places to walk...but it's not the same as NY...there aren't interesting people to watch or cool stores to walk  by.  In the winter I would walk from Union Square down to Houston and down Elizabeth street to Cafe Habana for a small coffee.  Then I would get on the train to my place near Coney Island.  I love Cafe Habana.

Although I love my job here in the WMA...I so miss NYC in many many ways.  I miss my walks and the sights and sounds of the city.  I just haven't found a walk that I enjoy...I live near the W&OD but walking alone on that during the week seems a little iffy to me.  I feel pretty sure that homeless people walk up and down the trail.  There are places I've seen off the trail that look like places that have been inhabited by people.  Or I could just be paranoid.

At any rate...I'm still losing weight and getting closer to moving into new weight categories that I haven't been in since the 90's.  Kind of scary.  Exciting...but scary

Week 6

I have lost 15 lbs since I started my diet on June 18.  When I weighed on Thursday, I realized I have about 10 lbs to lose to get to where I was when I was living in Brooklyn.  It is not easy...I find that I'm a bit bored with things and very tired of lettuce, so today I'm going to try some new receipes to help that situation.

For some reason I woke about around 3:30 AM and just could not get back to sleep.  Thank goodness it's Sunday so when the urge to sleep hits I can go take a nap.  Not sure why I'm so wide away...usually on work days I can barely get up and now I am wide awake.

And if you think there is nothing on TV during regular hours...TV in the middle of the night is pretty much  info-mercials about weight loss, make up or exercise tapes.  Not very compelling.

Week 4

Well, I survived my trip to Denver and I don't think I gained anything.  I'm back on the protocol again.  I weigh on Wednesday...but I do weigh myself regularly at home and I believe I've dropped weight again. 

In fact, now I'm so used to eating the way I do...I'm not really as hungry as I usually am.  It doesn't hurt that the weight is coming off.  I have a long way to go, so I hope I can keep myself motivated.  When I weigh...I'll put my tally up...however when I went to my doctor after a year...she said I had lost 20 lbs from the last time she saw me, which is pretty great.