Tonight I sat down and began watching Pearl Jam Twenty. It's weird how something like a documentary can take you back in time and make you remember your youth.
When you are in your twenties...you just can't imagine who you'll be when you're 40. It seems so far away. When you are in your forties, you think...why didn't I do more stupid stuff...take more risks. And then you turn around and look at people in their twenties and you feel a weird sort of anger and understanding that they just don't get about you. It's almost like they are on one continent and you are on another.
I hadn't thought about the 90's in a good while. I had a huge social life and I was just out there in a way I haven't been in so long it almost seems like it didn't ever happen. It was good for me to remember how I used to feel since I work with a lot of twenty somethings and if I can remind myself who I used to be...maybe I can be a better person for them to work with. And maybe I can't work through my weird anger/ambivilance about aging.
My Dad always says...it's better than the alternative. That doesn't make it easy.
It is good to place yourself in their shoes. Although times have changed, being young has many of the same issues as it always has been with the exception of the scene and technology changing. For a world that focuses on youth and beauty, we have that embedded in our minds that we should always stay twenty and look it. Well it is not possible and the green eyed monster we see sometimes is from wishing we could. Life changes as you age and that is a good thing I believe. I see those in their forties trying to act twenty and waste their lives while trying to cope with the younger generation and failing. :) The best way to see it is you only live once so live as you want and do not worry about what others have or are doing. Just be yourself and be happy with you.
Posted by: Sara V | February 02, 2012 at 07:45 PM