Beyond Belief

I am bored beyond comprehension. I had a moment with a hot young guy...but now that's all over and I just am bored with everything.  

Work is sort of eh for me and I just can't be passionately interested in anything. 

How do you reconnect with your life?

I bought this print that says CARPE DIEM that I want to hang in my bedroom so that every morning I'll be reminded to "bring it" as it were to my everyday life.

Although some of us are having a hard time with our search for a soulmate...my friend T is getting married next year.  I'm so happy for her...but life around me is changing.  Although life is all about change...sometimes change scares the hell out of me.

I have always wanted so much for my life...I just have problems with the middles of things.  Relationships start out good and I just want to go to 6 or 7 months into the relationship or to an engagement and not all the other stuff.

I think that is why often when a book gets dull I like to skip to the end to see what happens...and if I like it I'll go back and read the rest.  As long as I know it all works out...I can handle all the rough parts.  It's the "not knowing" that drives me crazy.

And I've been in my job for about 5 years.  This is when my boredom will set in and I think...I need to do something else.  Which is why my career has been higgledy piggledy.  I haven't found my passion...or more correctly I haven't knuckled down and done the work to be good at writing.  I tend to focus on the hard parts and not the joy you get from a story well told.

I suppose that laziness is something that grows on a person, like moss, and it is difficult to throw off.  However 45 is weighing on me...and I have to throw off my shackles of boredom and connect with something.

It may not be a tall, thin man with a big nose as I've dreamt of...but I need to do something before 5 more years goes by. 

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[Jenna]

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[Jenna]

If you need something to spice up your love life, come check out Greg Behrendt, comedian and co-author of “He’s Just Not That Into You.” He’ll be performing at the Washington DCJCC on Monday, May 4 at 8:00 pm. Click the link for more info.