Homeowner

This is the 5th weekend I've been in my home.  I didn't consider myself an official homeowner until I turned in the keys to my apartment on the 30th of May.   I wanted all ties to be broken...

My friend Sandy helped me repair the carpet in the apartment.  I cleaned the apartment like a madwoman.  I was on the floor washing the floor.  I wiped out every cabinet, cleaned the carpet and Sandy and I carefully patched up the infamous "lamp burn hole" in the carpet.

And guess what people...I had to pay no damages at all.  All I owed was 24 dollars for my water bill.

Amazing.

And now I'm in my new condo...with my sleigh bed, handmade in Italy, procured in NJ from Randy and Todd.

I've just made my first mortgage payment.  My first payment to the "country club".  My HOA payments are made for 20 months.  I do owe the condo association...but since my coupons haven't arrived...I'll be calling them next week to find out where to send my first payment.

I am working with a trainer on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 6 to 7 AM with 5 other ladies.  I am meeting with a holistic nutritionist for the next 3 months.  I started a step class on Wednesday mornings from 6 to 6:45 AM.  I continue to see a therapist to get my relationships together.

I have cable TV and Internet at home.

No worries, right? 

Well...mostly.  Work is annoying and I'm not sure what to do about that yet.  I still have a negative Nelly kind of vibe going at times.  My friend Rob and his wife called me out on it.  I have been called Eeyore before by friends.  It's my thing I guess.   

I think I've thought that therapy would change me.  Poof! I thought.  I'll talk about how I feel and then...I won't be obsessed with Mr. X.  It'll just disappear.  I'll start working out and then I'll lose weight poof! Then I'll meet guys and poof!  I'll start dating.

I think I've watched too many movies. Life isn't a movie.  It's life. 

I'm happy...but life is a moving target.  If you focus too much on certain things...like being perfect...you miss life itself.

So...I'm going to enjoy my Sunday in front of the TV...watching people run by on the W&OD...watching the cats sleep...watching old movies...vacuuming...unpacking boxes.  It's not much...but it's mine.

Comments

[Beth]

Congrats on being a homeowner! Don't be perfect; be yourself.